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AIHTNYCIAC
Life is about trusting your feelings, taking chances, being torn apart, getting cheated, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past and realizing life goes on.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006


freak.
im totally pissed off with cao lao shi.
she is so unreasonable?
SHE FREAKINGLY SCOLD ME FER NO BLOODY REASON?
ALL I DID WAS LAUGH.
f*ck wads her f*cking prob.
ive had enuf lo.
im always the person who do all those things.
but all i did today was LAUGH.
wads her prob can.
ok, all i did was, tell her tat we started after 7.40.
coz she wrote our starting time of paper is 7.40, but we started on 7.43
she dun even noe how the hack to read a clock?
she asked us, &ppl fool her la.
some say 7.45.
den ft was saying 7.50
den cao lao shi got fed up &scold me la.
wad de hack? I NEVER EVEN SAID ANYTHING CAN?
if she is biased against me, well, i have nothing to say.
she say im being rude. well, ok, the way i tok might be misunderstood.
but wad de f*ck? i did totally nothing today lo.
she say if i continue to be so rude, she'll send me to detention.
its like i freaking care? i never even do anything la.
i was sitting there laughing la.
den im the one who is being blamed &scolded for all tat ppl said?
wad more can i say?
im juz the hopless crap

if i say, her scoldings did not affect me, im obviously lying.
today's paper was crap.
MCQ ive gotten alrdy lortsa wrongs &im ready to fail.
im dead, i studied the whole night can.
i never even slept la. den her 5min scoldings pulled me all the way down.
im hopeless.
&my geog, i did badly fer mcq.
i noe, i will do badly fer it. coz things happened.
im easily affected in a way or two.
all i could say is, im really hopeless &im always the sinful one.
wadeva ppl do, its counted into my debt, coz ive once be rude.
in ppl's eyes, im someone who doesnt noe my limits to stop jokes.
im always the one.
i dunno wad to do alrdy.
even if i try to change some ppl just couldnt accept me.
my character, perhaps, some ppl wouldnt even wanna get near to me.
im juz someone who would be left alone again.
even u, my bestest friend, had left me alone.
all alone, u've found someone new, &im being put away again.
i really hate this feeling, coz its really hurting to see ppl u r once close to to drift apart from u.
u'll never care, coz u have all u needed with u alrdy. im juz a stepping stone of urs.
im alrdy useless.
&i understand it.
im really tired to continue with life. its really &seriously meaningless.
ive tried to change the life im leading, but things juz remained the same.
there r too many memories fer me to ferget, too many ppl around to ferget about.
&i really cant leave them alone.

wadeva it is, im relieve, tmr, will be maths
&no cao lao shi till monday.

ppl around me affect me alort
all tat ppl say affect me alort.
im really tired to go on
im juz a noisy crap who is doing all those wrong things.
teachers r biased against me
best friend left me
i have nothing more to say.
im left with nothing.
but my family(:

&that was what we thought at,
4:05 PM