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AIHTNYCIAC
Life is about trusting your feelings, taking chances, being torn apart, getting cheated, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past and realizing life goes on.
Monday, October 16, 2006


heyy ppl.
was gaming with my kor juz now
super crazy
yeahh, im a loser.
lols. he is like super pro?
well, wad can i say more bout it, HE IS A GUY can.
shucks.
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found out something.
well, not exacting found out
but confirmed it?
well, im really sick &tired of life.
wad more can i get?
im hanging by the edge &nobody will noe how i would feel?
imagine a closefriend of urs, who leave u so suddenly tat u dun even noe wad have u done wrong to cause him to leave u, wad would u do? how would u feel?
if it was somebody who is no one to u, told that close friend of urs something tat u've never admitted, how would u feel?
its driving my insane.
im practically so sick of everything.
can anyone out dere understand me more? i really cant mention it to anyone of you.
if i were to tok to u bout this, i really trust u.
but its not everything, coz i really dun wanna let others noe how im feeling over this incident.
coz ive had enuf, totally enuf.
im afraid of backstabbers.
they're suckers, &they're scary.
they're murderers.
the world is really changing, wad ive never ever said, appear true to those who r important to me.
well, how many more blows can i expect from this world?
someday, perhaps, i'll juz turn into someone who wouldnt wanna tok my prob to ppl.
even to those whom i trust.
some would say, because i get hurt easily, thats y im feeling so affected.
but not, thru this 7mths, i spend my days in skool with your jokes, ur smiles, ur laughters, ur tears, ur confessions of how much u love her, ur everything.
its because u're there, therefore i can make it thru so much.
u're my closest friend.
no one could replace ur place in my heart.
not a soul.
now tat u're gone i really dunno wad i can do to bring u back.
i remember those days that we stayed home &tok on fone.
those silly ques u asked me &we laughed over bout.
i really miss those days badly.
i'll do anything to bring back those days
its ur trust that bring my forward, that makes me move on.
which successfully let me get over him.
its ur support, ive gotten over him.
but now that im back to ground zero without even, im feeling worser
u cost my life &u dunno a thing.
coz u're blinded by ppl &things around u.
but no matter wad, i'll keep tat name u gave &remember everything u've said
im feeling so affected.
&im no longer the crazyy cynthia everybody has known)':

&that was what we thought at,
12:18 AM