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Monday, January 15, 2007

hello earth:D

its like 11plus going to 12am soon!
yeah, i just finished my homework. alright im slow but hahaha, i wasted lots of time.
(x when i reached home after co i actually bathed &kind of watched the show on channel 8 till yuan &ft call.
&yeah, hahaha, chatting with ft rocks okay!
we laughed like mad people again.
&we both actually agrees that ahmao is kind of cute in some sense.
hahaha.
he've gotten moodswings. or whatever you call that.
hahaha.

alright, really a happening day in school.
at first was me waking up late in the end cabbing to school with yuan.
ahhhhhh, im real late to meet up with seniors la.
sorry to all!

&was the performance, i was quite happy with it.
as in i did not make really big mistakes, but we kind of stop at this point, that was a really really big mistake by every of us can.
like kind of too obvious a thing to happen?
haha, nevermind bah, i still think i did alright, just that i kept looking at yupeng, &i stared at my drum for like ever.
&sagano high people are really gorgeous okay!

my first performance of gunhetao up on stage in front of audience was quite alright:D
but when im up on stage i almost died. blahhhhh!
i guess there were 500 pupils in the hall {sagano high + bbss secondary3}.
rawr! but luckily it wasnt my level of pupils, or not i'll go trembling like mad la.
&yeah, natalie i think you did alright bah(: or not the lady from sagano high would not come to us &say the performance was great when we're out.
oh, when im up on stage i saw choonyan. hahaha

the performance ended before i could actually know exactly how i did up on stage, &yeah, was supposed to go back to class):
i wanted to stay to watch, but well, blame me for being a lower secondary la.
rawr! &i felt as if im an oddball among all people can.
for co, all percussionist were upper secondary except for me, &weijian &tianxin were secondary4.
the emcees, atiqah &gary were like secondary3, &even stage crews were like upper secondary.
oh man, im just an oddball then.
but luckily gary was so kind-hearted to come over &kind of talk to me la.
alright, enough of the performance part.

home econs was like phew kind of thing.
i did not do that worksheet. &mdm khadijah was like okay, pass up by tomorrow.
&i realised, lots of people did not hand in okay.

&during bio, was really really funny okay.
miss koe actually did not come &this TA was in the class with us as sagano people + the secondary3s were in the concourse.
so, we have to stay in the class for like one hour.
&this TA was like really unhappy with my clique.
not exactly all, but part of us. &he actually came over &kind of say that our voices were like too loud &we gave the diao kind of face.
&i think he got like pissed &kind of picked on me la, cause im wearing a tie you see, &he was like a prefect. &amp;looking at me can.
&im like what did i do, &i did nothing practically at that moment okay, so i went saying what did i do &i think he got the verge to scold me already.
hahaha, but well, we were just laughing before he came, so, have we done wrong?
ahhhhhh, we might just be too loud in volume compare to others.
hahaha

history was zzz at first.
&after i got so irritated by some things &rawr!
i hope i could find somebody to grumble all i want laaaaaaa.
but im not too sure either. making me greeeeeeen is so not going to work again(:

co was really really really really making me pissed at first la.
the whole bunch of secondary1s came &like what the hell, we were really packed &they took percussion's space.
&took the damn chair that ive actually arranged for the percussion people.
zzz, &i went to ask mrs lim what to do &she kind of shouted {actually just raised her voice} &say secondary1s are more important now, we can wait.
LIKE WTH!
&i got really flare up &walk out to yuan la.
like hahaha, the combine is starting soonnnnnn &she told me that.
i almost burst there, &yeah, i just went out waiting for the secondary1s to move away.
but they didnt, so i started to arrange the chairs again, but this time, having the pathetic little space between the us &dizi people.
&like hahaha, we're like on the same line with zys people today.
so like hahaha, see how squeezy it was with the instrument too okay, ¬ forgetting the music stands.
aiya, whatever la, im really tired of complaining.
&i found myself kind of suffering from somekind of attitude problem too.
ive already noticed it long ago, &i have to manage my impulsivity(;
HOM.

combine was okay for me except for the part whereby i have to count like for so long.
zzz. i really got damn tired of counting la.
&i almost suffocated to death as i have blocknose.
&even till now, it have not recover, &i stubbornly refuses to eat the panadol, as i thought its really lousy &will never work on me.
so i'll let it recover on its own:D

during break i kind of helped natalie with the druming part which huanglaoshi thought natalie screwed in.
but i thought it was alright?
&jasmine say my timing or whatever it is called is not really accurate, so yeah, sorry natalie!
i think i kind of wasted your time. ):
but still jiayou yeah;DDD

my day in school ended happily i could say?
i have no exact idea either. hahaha.
***
rawr! i really hate copycats &seriously feel like to strangle them to death on the spot okay! &stop making me jealous la, i know what you're trying to do, &im so sorry that i would never fall into you freaking trap &feel bad over little things like that ever again okay! im stupid. &i have no idea at all why im doing so much just for some, while being treated like nothing. im not asking much for anything, since ive already given everything i could for the past months, so now, its useless trying to make up. &whats more, so many people have appear &plus there were so much complications here &there. people came in mid-way, &making me feel really uneasy &so-stucked-in-the-middle-of-nowhere. &i guess you too had that feeling when blah came into the picture, making things even complicated, &making me messed up. ahhhhh, &im getting really upset everyday over this issue, &my life is becoming really dull. ): i dont want to wish for anything big to happen, but something to change in the sense that everybody would be happy with the ending. (: &ive thought of a way, but im just an idiot thinking about it. rawr! im really really really really really really going bonkers laaaaaaaaaa. ):

sorry about the paragraph ive typed above.
i know its really long &draggy, but i just couldnt take it after so many months of struggles in me.
its exceptionally giving me headaches when i have totally nobody to talk to about this. not that i dont trust any of you, but i just dont know how to get things out of my mouth.
ahhhhhhhhh.
***
its almost 1am, &ive blog for like an hour.
so, i better get going.
cause my mum thought there isnt school tomorrow.
zzz. im going to watch baifenbai la.
i desperately need to watch it today:D
&ive gotten yuan &fangting to morning call me in the morning:D
thank you!(;

so byebye. (:
its coming, really soon, &ive gotten nothing in mind. rawr!

&that was what we thought at,
8:53 AM