the truth is:

Sunday, January 07, 2007

HELLO HELLO:D

just recieved a phone call from ft, she was telling me about the timetable. &i realised, we're having two different versions of it.
&to escape the oh-so-terrible literature lesson, i shall listen to ft &follow the old timetable:D
&hello, we're NOT having any 35mintues lesson already okay!
like so boring okay! imagine we'll have to start at the book for 1full hour for literature.
zzz. im sure to fall asleep.
&HE &DnT are going to be full 2hours this year.
for HE im fine with it, but DnT, i tell you, im so going to sleep my way through okay.
whats more, its mr chew who is going to be our dnt teacher. like ha-ha, i think im going to do badly again.

&when we follow the timetable from tomorrow onwards, i swear, im going to find myself a better looking table okay!
i couldnt study with such dirty table with ink &so much dust on it!
no matter how much strength, and tissues i used to clean the table, i still think my seat is the ever-so-horrible-seat!
i describe it as a haunted place / haunted seat.
like what the hell okay! spiders, dusts, mosqitoes, dirty table.
maybe someday i'll find spider webs around my table after holidays.
to phrase it in a better way, i have spiders, dusts, mosqitoes &a dirty table to accompany me through this term one of year 2007, instead of the i-am-so-used-to-it-people to keep my company during lessons!
even though its almost the same place i had for the previous year, but the feeling wasnt the same at all.
HA-HA-HA, school is disaster i could say?

having bad performance in everything im in &ha-ha-ha, im so going to get kick out sooner or later.
im not fit to be one of you.
or maybe one day i couldnt take the damn stress &attempt to quit the second time.
that might be a good news to some, i have no idea at all either, im thinking too much.
but i can really sense that things will go really bad this year.

i could say that my mood is getting from bad to worse since this afternoon.
&i have no idea why too, i think its really terrible for things to have such a great change la.
-cries-
like what the hell! everything is like going down-hill for me!
i dont want to stuck in thise situation for the rest of my secondary school life okay!
im want to stream in to the top class but never am i to take pure sci like what my brother had planned for me. {like wth! its my sec sch life alright!}
im want to excel in co, mma &p.h, &im desperate for these.

but sometimes i really thinks that im the only one lagging behind the past still.
for example, the three who've sitted around me the previous year - duz, yeofuqiang &syu.
they've all moved on okay!
they're sitting on different sitting position, all EXCEPT ME.
they've went back sticking with the same people.
feeling really comfortable with their current sitting position all the three of you have gotten.
ahhhhhh, whatever &whichever reason it is, im still lagging behind the past.
&im still seriously holding onto the past la, i think im an old hag among all okay.
but, im still holding onto the past no matter what:D
cause i believe in miracle that we'll have chance to get back to the past one day:D

but thinking of things that happened the pass few days, i really noticed that things really change and the thoughts i had, was plain one-sided-thinking. &i can see it in your eyes. so, maybe, we'll not force things to go like what we want but go like how it was. :D

byebye, enough of me being so moodless.
&whats more, my damn mouse is having some problem la.
like what the hell!

im sick &tired of everything la.
byebye.
im the one remembering everything, give my some respect will you. im not hating you no matter what, &im not saying those things, never am i going to, so dont force me to, cause you know what kind of person am i &you know clearly, what i really wanted badly for.

&that was what we thought at,
10:35 PM