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Friday, February 02, 2007

HELLO:D

super shioking alright!
i just slept for like 4hours before being here:D
was too tired, so i just went to sleep before starting on my homework.
&now, ive done 0 homework:D
i rock. but im currently researching on the art thing.
while blogging. :D

today's rehearsal suck
firstly, things that happened, the way my section was being treated.
&secondly, of cause my performance la.
suck okay.

what im going to write might sound a little harsh, but im still going to type everything on my mind straight out, reason being, when mrs l. scolded my senior, im 100% sure, she did not think before speaking.
so i shall do what she did this afternoon:D

okay, set off at like 12plus. the percussion instruments were actually in the lorry.
&we actually went empty handed in the bus.
so me &natalie was chatting all the way~
haha.

when we've reached, we were supposed to go get our instruments, well, we went la.
&guess what.
the drum's screw just went missing for no freaking reason
&hello, its not like you have to take the stupid screw out before bringing it anywhere la.
okay, this is not the problem, cause if the screw is gone, we can always get another screw to replace it.
here comes the problem.
mrs l. freakingly asked who was supposed to play that instrument &of cause my senior replied la.
&she was scolded luh.
&mrs l. was saying that we did not actually take good care of our own instrument.
&LIKE HELLO, LAST PRACTICE, XIELAOSHI WAS THE ONE SAYING THAT PEOPLE WHO HELP US LUH. &WHATS MORE, THE INSTRUMENT WAS IN THE LORRY, HOW IS MY SENIOR SUPPOSED TO LOOK AFTER IT? &THE GUYS ACTUALLY HELPED WITH THE CARRYING IN OF THE INSTRUMENTS CAN.
whatever la. super pissed off okay, i really regretted of not shooting back of what she said okay.

the hall was big.
&yeah, our orchestra wasnt really terrible, but im horrible.
the pieces sounded a little of empty?
i have no idea why but it just sound different of what we actually played in school.
maybe the studio is enclose, thats why.
1 hour &15minutes passed really fast this afternoon in the conference hall.
&percussionist was supposed to stand our way through.
&my leg was like breaking okay.

okay, when we was supposed to bring everything down again, me &natalie actually brought our instruments to the lift
&that uncle told us we're not allowed to bring that down together with other instrument
&like hello, we did place it into the lift before going up for practice luh.
&later jiayong was saying that we have to bring it down ourselves cause it wasnt loaded into the lift when we're up.
&yeah. we took it down luh.
like what the hell, we're damn pissed la.

overall, i thought this rehearsal wasnt really a very good one.
but it doesnt need any of my comment cause i thought im just one extra in the orchestra.
i practically thought that my section was not being respected at all okay.
its like so obvious okay.
so what if we're in percussion, arent we part of the orchestra in some sense?
or are we just some useless people taking up extra spaces in the orchestra?
&shouldnt the people show a little more respect to us?
if people were to think that percussion should not be part of the orchestra, or eve think that we're just some people pulling the orchestra down.
den alright luh, i have not much to say.
but we, individually, we're human, we have human rights.
every single one of us.
if you freaking does not think that we should be respected, individually or whatever way it is, then im very sorry to say that you're not somebody that should be respected too.
so what if your somebody who've lived so much more years than myself, you does not even care about how we would feel with the comments you passed.
think alright, even myself i reflect on my own doings okay.
im just 13 turning 14 this year can, i have not rights to say that im mature in my thinking, but at least, i know what does respect mean &know deeply in my heart, everybody should be respect as our ownself.

i was really disappointed okay.
&i even have the damn thought to leave la.
not like as if they need me, &i seriously think, im totally like not visible to the conductors &teachers okay.
practically, im a junior with total no outstanding point.
i didnt mean that i need lots of attention &wanted to be noticed.
my point is, what for go for a cca that neglect the person itself?
i could say, even digital art, such a small group of people in a cca, i could feel myself being in the cca even when we're only meet up once per week you see.
so what if everybody knows about the orchestra in the school, they dont know how people are treated in it.
&i doubt anybody else in the orchestra would know &understand how we, as part of percussion section felt.

say that im an idiot who would always have lots of nonsense thinking to express, but i'll still stand strong with my point of people not respecting the section im in.
&to say, i seriously see no reason why im in the cca already.
this was not the very first time that our section got into trouble when it not our fault okay.
the other time when the orchestra went to sarawak, natalie said the same thing happened.
so, the prove that im not too sensitive with things that happened around.

whatever.
no matter how much i type, things would still be the same.
so, what for do more typing to pollute me blog(:

im supposed to be doing my homework now, but im not doing it practically at this moment of time.
im really a slacker~

&YOU. STOP SPREADING THAT AROUND.
its like so none of your business damn.
know the limits will you.

okay, i have to go,
so byebye people:D
this prove that, we're not trusting each other as much as before. the replacement is still there. so yeah, maybe its time to bid goodbye soon.

&that was what we thought at,
1:05 AM