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AIHTNYCIAC
Life is about trusting your feelings, taking chances, being torn apart, getting cheated, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past and realizing life goes on.
Friday, May 11, 2007


guilt.
filled me. the whole me. the very whole of caicynthia. ):

thoughts were messed up since last night.

i dont know how to put my emotions &feelings down to words.


im just having too much worries.
right from the start, shouldnt even get myself involved.

i wonder why must my life be that happening sometimes.
its not one incident, its not two incident. its more than that lot. ):
which really almost put me down to a mental breakdown to be frank.

incidents after incidents.
it came like a train. a train with no end.



its a stress to me.
privacy, respect, trust, honesty, i wonder which exactly mattered to you.

im not pissed,
im just disheartened.
traumatized of things you ve said &done.
frankly speaking, nothing really made me went to that extent before.
&that s going to be the first &maybe, the last time i hope.


this post is extremely of no help for me to feel any better
sobbing did not help.
pouring my heart out to somebody close is not longer going work either.
neither screaming / having meiji chocolate would help.

im just so going to sleep my way through till morning.
&see what more had happened by then.

sorry if you hate the way i blogged.
ive been getting really emotional lately.
im sorry.

also, to _:
im seriously sorry to end you up in that situation.
but since we've talked things out, everything would be alright yeah?

to myself:
cheer up caiz! although you cant situate yourself properly now, you dont have to feel so demoralised and get stucked in the midst of confusion. move on with the rest &im sure people who have gotten faith &given support to you will continue to stay right by your side! although people come &go, you've gotta accept the fact! this is life! life is really full of ups &downs, so you've really got to learn to handle it well, and live with it yeah(:
go caiz! you can do it(: &SMILEXZXZXZ:D


well, im going to sleep my way through till morning
but its quite unlikely, cause ive slept in the afternoon. ):

text me if you would like to contact me. i'll reply once ive woken up from my sleep(:

byebye!
respect. give me some respect please. &so, stop treating it like something that could be discussed openly. you're implying stress to me in fact.

&that was what we thought at,
8:09 PM