the truth is:

Thursday, October 11, 2007

its not the end of the world yet, im still alive(:

no idea why, and how did my results dropped that much. underperform for geog especially. was really disappointed. had the urge to cry out loudly. (i did cry, but i still cant stop feeling upset): - and this is so unlike the usual me!)

after recess was :/, disastrous. sci, geog. and maths, again, im disappointed. with myself, obviously. i did study, but had no idea what happened. and mine, is not much of last minute mugging you see. i did not burn midnight oil this time round, but had my full 8hours sleep, but nothing helps, instead, my results dropped. well, i have no idea what happened. but i know im the one to be blamed the most. not anyone / anything else.

but still!
gotta thank all the people who stood by me all along!
especially clique and duz!

duz made me cry even more manzxz. but, i was touched by his words. seriously boy, even if you have no idea how to comfort me, im okay with it, even sitting right there with me, i could feel the care you gave yeah! dont worry too much alright, im feeling much better now.
and just to let you know, i felt the same way as you did earlier, during english. i had no idea what to do, but just sat beside you. hoping you'll feel the support im giving alright! i know we are gonna be friends for long. (:

&clique!
although we didnt talked much today, i could feel, everybody cares for me. and i really appreciate what everybody is doing and had done for me. thank you friends(:

i didnt know why, im having the urge to thank yeofuqiang, syu, des and zt too!
the moment i see them, i'll feel really happy. and i have no idea why. (totally not because they're jokers, but! they're great friends ive gotten!)
&you too. i thank you many times before, but again, thank you! you're one of the best ppl ive ever met!

down with terrible headache since morning.
been putting up with it for a very very long time already, really had the intentions to pon co in the morning. but thinking back, i know i cant and shouldnt miss this session. and in fact, i was glad i went. practiced another new song. did alright for it, although im still slowwwwwww(or rather fast, i was out of tempo just now :x)

co,
sheila(junior) reminded me alot about the past. when peiqi is still with us.
all of a sudden, i miss her so much. and i wish i could let her know im all ready to give her my support for her upcoming o's! and im sure, everybody in percussion do right!
i just miss the past so much. ):

still feeling crushed.
over results, but no worries, cynthia is still alive!
(actually i dont exactly know how im supposed / should feel now ):)

anyway, is there pe tomorrow?
i have no idea wheres my timetable, i think its in the locker.
&another thing, my locker is really fulllllllllllll. you'll never want to open it, because i dread opening it too. the mess its :O, its really very messy. and im the cause of it. sorry kwangteng! =x

and oh!
gotta thank zizhen for helping me to get back my poor bottle who've been stayover at 3e1's classroom for almost a week's time! thank you!

just realised, ive been thanking people alot in this post.
i shall stop doing that but sleep early(if i could) today. fyi, i couldnt sleep last night okay, i gotta use the beach idea again to sleep manzxzx. but thats really useful i could say.
SO! THANK YOU(x
go ahcai! you can do it(:

the little things, sometimes they're worth so much more than they seem. sometimes, they're the only things that even matter.

bye, and nights to all!

&that was what we thought at,
9:20 PM